Work issues

I have work issues - yet again.

This place i work in is run primarily by people whom come from another country. They have the most infamous way of making people look incompetent then sacking them because of it. No matter how that person bends over backwards for them.. Once the black tag is on your back - your days are numbered.

I think today i have received my tag.

It is no secret that i am the sole primary caregiver for my disabled mother. It is also not a secret to upper management (all of whom are from the other country) that her care has drastically changed and become more. It is also no secret that i disparately need that job as its JUST ME supporting this family of 3 (on 13.50 per hour no less! Yes ends BARELY meet)

Then suddenly today i am told that i have 4 new reports to pull out data for. I have two new documentation processes to do. This is on top of the work i already have assigned to my desk that takes me until 1pm to do. (730am to 1pm) Now i have these other things as well. AND no more working past 8.5 hours a day and NO i cannot work from home.

On top of it all.....

I am now, suddenly being told that there are complaints from the Team managers that i don't spend enough time with my agents. WTF?! How can i split myself in two??I'm stuck behind my desk playing freaking secretary and now I'm expected to now spend time with my agents as well?!

It leaves me wondering how in the world am i do do this??
Take today for instance. I busted my ass off for them. I didn't even take a lunch. Thats right no food in my belly until supper time. NO BREAKS either. At the end of the day i didn't complete half of what i was suppose to do.

And know what is sad?!

I'm disappointed in ME for not getting it all done. I try so damn hard to make my boss happy.. and in the end after i worked my arse off I'll get an email stating why wasn't this this and this completely as directed?? never mind that i worked me head off.

I'm tired.. and I'm soo cranky.. and I'm still at the point of tears over this crap.

..... and sir does not want to discuss it.

He does not want to hear that i think they are in the process of firing me because i work hard but in their eyes not hard enough. He does not want to hear of how difficult they make it for people before they fire them. He does not want to hear anything of that job.

I wish i could quit. I really do. I wish i had a job like before. Clock my 8.5 hours.. leave happy.. go back to work happy the next day. Not leave miserable and exhausted knowing full well I'm gonna get reprimanded for not completing my work even though there simply was not enough time.

I left that happy job to come here for my mother. So she could be closer to her siblings before she passes. I have had nothing but crap low paying jobs since i moved... and that is frustrating.

I wont talk about my work to sir anymore. He does not want to hear it anyway.....

........................ and that makes me sad............................