Bad days

Sir said he had a bad day today... that just continued on when he got home. He had some unexpected running around to get done. So much for a quiet night at home.

I can say that my day was not all that much better. Although he didn't get into what made it a bad day you could just hear it in his voice that something was bugging him. He will tell me of it if he feels.

I can say that it is nice to know and SEE that even though he had a bad day - he never takes it out on me. Oh sure he may come home and use what he owns as he pleases but i am never yelled at. It is never blamed on me when it is not my fault.

My bad day was the dreaded yearly pap test. *shivers* Gah i hate those things. At the same time we quickly discussed getting a tubal ligation. Wee no more birth control after that! Those crazy meds! They give me migraines. Although the physician did say that if i think my periods are bad now.. wait till i go off birth control and find out.

Honestly.. I'm so tired of the migraines - i don't honestly care of what happens without the meds. End result is i have a referral to a gyn. In a few days i'll get the appointment and we'll go from there.

After that pap I'm all crampy and sore. I hate those things - wait i think i said that.

I talked this over as nicely as i could with sir. He hates discussing anything "woman" related. So i try really hard. He said we'll wait to see what the gyn suggests.

Im thinking maybe i wont need such a strong one as my tubes will be all done up.

Sir told me awhile ago not to worry. I wont go through this surgery alone. I hope its postponed until the fall so i don't have to go through it alone. I cant do needles. AT ALL. I pass right out. So going through surgery.. ewwww..

I'm such a big baby - but he has taken me for who i am anyway. ALL of me.

*big smile*

I love that i don't have to hide who i am anymore!