second last night..

And tonight was the second last evening here.

We had the girls with us for most of the day again today. Tonight we had them for a make shift supper of wings and pizza and pasta salad that daddy made. mmmmmmmm

And when we drove them home to drop them both off at their houses.... i cried silently on the way back.

I dont want to leave.

I dont want to leave them as i feel im making progress in getting to know them better.. and them me.
I dont want to leave because i have to go back to my crumby job that i HATE (oh and Ereline -my boss- IS coming over from India - - joy)
I dont want to leave because that means that tomorrow is our last day here... and that also means i dont have any more days with my daddy left...

The last time i saw my daddy was when we were here in January. It took me a good month to finally settle into my home life....... and i never fully did......

I dont know when i'll see him again.. and that makes me very sad.....

i hate this.....it so sucks